intro

sickened
never thought
i'd hit a point where i was so low
about a thing so superficial and vain
consumed by such industries
such as fashion, diet, sex, makeup, beauty
sickening, it is so
self-esteem decreased by such things
confidence shattered by ideas and ideals
conscientious of nonsense magazines and shows
but here's to my reality check
the photos, they don't lie
the image reflected on the mirror is the truth
deny it, ignore it, avoid it
eventually it's gonna come back to haunt you
no matter who says beauty lies within
it still relies on how one feels inside
sickening, it is, definitely so
to feel this sickened with oneself because of
one photo, one reflection,
too bad only one image lies in all those
and that is of one sickened by herself.

This is a memoir of a woman, starving, dying, striving to be thin. This is dedicated to all the other princesses, little girls, women, beauty queens, and simple folk alike who encounter the same struggle. Pressured by society, ideals, and extremes, we all stand together in the fight against being fat. This is my story, my sister's story, my best friend's story, her story...OUR story.